“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in or steal. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

“Matthew 6:19-21

I struggle with the idea of minimalism.  I want to be one, a minimalist.  But I love to buy pretty things.  I love looking at my friends who can carry themselves well wearing wardrobes that suit them.  I want to be like them too.  Oh, how I love looking at online shops and adding a few things to my cart, and another, and another…

Oh wait!  I shouldn’t.  I still have bills to pay, my kids’ tuition fees to settle, and groceries to finish.

Just a few blouses ordered online won’t hurt.  Besides, I deserve it!  I work hard all day and my lower back is killing me.  I deserve a little splurge here and there.

Priorities!!! I should think of my priorities?  What are those again?  

I heard a reflection from Jeff Cavins in my Hallow mobile app about PRIORITIES versus PRIORITY.  But that’s another topic for another time.

Back to my online shopping.  Let’s go over the battle within.  Let’s call them Mind 1 and Mind 2 for the lack of imagination and creativity right now.

Mind 1:  I should know my priorities.  I should stop buying the things I really don’t need.  Like this pretty denim skirt online.  (Looks at my closet full of clothes.  I don’t even get to wear most of them.  I wonder why I prefer to wear the same clothes most of the time).

Mind 2:  I’m tired.  I deserve a new denim skirt and besides it’s not even that expensive.  Oh look at that green blouse.  I love green, it’s my favorite color.  I deserve to look good after working for long hours.

And the battle continues for years.  Sometimes Mind 1 wins, often Mind 2 wins.  The credit card billing speaks for itself.